Ansaveh!

first time ko mag popost ng taglish d2 so you better read lol xD pilitan? :)

ang gnda na sana nung week na ito eh, si crush inapproave na ko sa FB tas nakausap ko pa kahit sa commentbox lng syet haha but this guy gay sinisira nya ang lahat T.T akala ko i got over him na pero sa twing makikita ko sya bakit ung heart ko nag *thump THUMP* ng mabilis tas gusto ko nakikita ko sya lagi. Hmmm last year nakausap ko sya as in harap harapan inamin ko ung feelings ko courtesy for my friend and fellow classmate well they're close i even envy her she can have a BESO BESO with him T.T yeap sabi nya ok lng naman na may mag kaka "KRAS" sakanya pero sadly hanggang dun na lng d ko na pinagigting kasi ung friend ko na ung as in close na friend may gusto dn sakanya haha pareho naman kaming nagdusa eh lol i'll give you his initial "CG" ahhhhhh sana lalaki na lng ako i even made a poem for him wanna read ? ayw ko nga :P

                                      As I lay in my bed

One thing is in my head

“I’m a girl yet you like a boy”

Can’t you see he only see you as his toy

Thinking of it makes me mad

Seeing him with you makes me sad

I’m longing for your touch

Dreaming for your lips

For us to share a sweet and meaningful kiss

I fake a smile all this years

I stayed quiet to hide my tears

I waste time under the rain

I spent hours crying in pain

The whispers I choked out into the night.

The times where I could hardly breathe

I’m tired of being a “stranger”

To the certain point that I want to change my gender

Why don’t you give us a chance?

Can’t I be your VIP for once?

I want to be with you forever

You as my husband, me as your wife

But life is cruel

You will always be his “princess”

And he’s your “prince”

I want you to fall for me

And give me your heart’s key

 I want to claim you

Your porcelain skin that belongs to him

Those cherry lips that always locks with his

But I guess I can only have you in a dream

Because that certain thing belongs to him

        Your heart--------

dat d ko to ilalabas eh pero yeah just for you to read hahaha nangongonsensya na ngaun :P

actually i didn't tell anyone that this is for him lol :P why am i always stuck with a gay?? :P

POKE POKE ! :O

LET'S TWEET! :D

T.A. ME! xD

My BIAS List :D

Like i've said i'm unto Kpop and i belong to Kpop world it means a lot to me well it become a habit well i guess it's in my nature now bare with it :D

well here's a list of my bias Boy bands and Solo artists only i didn't include Girl bands and others hmmm :3 

Super Junior

-lee Sungmin

-cho kyuhyun

-zhou mi/joomyuk

Bigbang

-TOP/Choi Seunghyun

FT Island

-Choi minhwan

Shinee

-Choi minho

B2st/beast

-Yang Yoseob

-Yong Junhyung

Mblaq

-Cheondoong/Park Sanghyun

Ukiss

-Shin Dongho

-Hoon

DBSK

-Jung yunho/U know

SS501

-Kim Hyungjun

DNA

-Jay/Jeon jinhwan

2pm

-Jung Wooyoung

2am

-Jang jinwoon

Dalmatian

-Lee Dongrim

TeenTop

-Niel/Daniel

-Chanjo/Choi Jonghyun

x-5

-haewoon

-zin

-Sulhu

Infinite

-Kim Sunggyu

-nam Woohyun

-Lee sungjong

b-block

-zico

-P.O.

-U kwon

Fcuz

-Shim Yejun

B1A4

-Gongchan

Boyfriend

-Jeongmin

-Minwoo

M1

-Kyuwan

-chanyeol

ze:a

-Minwoo

-junyoung

-hyunshik

Cn Blue

-Jungshin

SG wannabe

-seokhun

Coed

-nALIMUTAN SORRY HAHAHAHA 

HITT

-Hayong

SuperNova

-Kim Sungje

-Jun Yunhak

Supreme team 

-Simon D/sam D/Simon Dominic

BOYZ

-Noah

BB Star

-bang yong guk

-kim himchan

My Name

-Chae jin

-Jun Q

SOLO

Brian Joo 

Seo in guk

yeah so there you have it. I know as the time pass by it'll still increase it's number knowing now that many company produce aspiring stars :3

and yeah reminder don't mess up  with any of them. Bash them you'll be buried alive, hurt them i'll torture you most of all take them away from me  and i'll assure you i'll make you suffer more than anyone have felt, whom ever you are the most powerful in the world or something vudoo you have i'll hunt you down even  in hell.

FAQs updated

-i'm s demanding bitch i think

-a self proclaimed procrastinator

-i have passion in sketching 

-i just love spazzing alot

-collecting certain thing is my possesion

-i can roll my tongue 180* left and right and i can do a clover leaf too.

-my late father is a soldier

-i'm currently living with my father's relatives

yeah wait for more updates if you're interested though :D

wihhhhhhhhh!!! :D

so today i didn't do anything a lazy ass i'am :D
i watched PBB and Seichang never fail to pull amazement out of me.'
so after few days i didn't read fic consecutively i don't feel doing a thing.
practically i watched the whole episode of pirates of the caribbean 1-4 i keep laughing with the whole movie ohhh Johnny Depp your so good! :D

facts about me xD

SHELOU MAE A. CANLAS
15 Years Old

blood type: AB+

random shits about her xD...............

- i love chocolate, it can make me smile. :D

- i'm vain. definitely the moody one.

- crazy kpop fan girl.

- i love arguing though i myself will give up at the end.

- messy and clean freak at the same time lol xD

- everyone call me "ATE" because of my height, it's not suited with my age :D

- i spend hours reading fics

- i'm lazy hell yeah

- i like singing and dancing even if i'm not good *a trying hard bitch :D*

- i have a step sister which is an half Japanese and half Pilipino

- i curse a lot. like A LOT

- i almost die when a was little thanks to my "PAPA" <3

- i fail in spelling and determining time in an analogue clock *well that's shit -.-*

- i'm one of those crazy kids who love math

- i remember my first love *puppy love* is a soldier i even cried when he didn't come in my uncle's 40 days.

- my first official bias in kpop is FT island's Minhwan supposed to be it's Jaejin but i got hit by a truck and when i woke i just realize i love Minhwan more lol

- i'm a pervert kyumin shipper xD

- i love playing console games- i'm not that religious but still i have my faith in god. (Roman Catholic)

- i have 15 awesome cousins all in all (father's side)

- i love Rnb and alternative rock before i got my self in kpop world

- my first Korean crush is lee dong gun (lover's in paris) then rain (full house) damn they're still hot O.O

- in Taiwan, Vic Zhou caught my attention

- in China it's JR k one (top on the forbidden city)

- Japan, it's Teppei Koike

- i love taking random pictures by myself and begin editting it after a while :D

- i play guitar well and bass, i play flute, i guess i could play a little bit in piano. i'm looking forward to learn drums well i just love playing musical instruments.

- i hate making an essay Tagalog or English one ughhh -.-

- i used to have braces- i love color blue black and white

- i hate cats i just don't find them adorable 

- i love domo

- i'm trying to learn japanese, and korean

- i collect converse (shoes)

- my idol is my brotha, 

- mind games are my thing

- i have two accounts in yahoo.

- i already experienced drinking half bottle of wine.

- i hate cigarettes's smoke

- i prefer guy's perfume

- i'm a bit boyish

- i bit my fingers when i'm bored or my lips in deed

- originally i have a two rings in my pinky fingers both left and right but apparently i gave the plain band to our last year's Practice teacher as my remembrance to him.

- i hate people who imitate nor do same things i do *make your own name bitch!*

- My public speaking skills suck.

- "Patience is virtue" fuck that :D

- i don't move when i sleep so i always end up having stiff neck

 - as time goes by my tongue's getting sharper and sharper :D

- i'm allergic to heat i'll get little bumps in my arms and feet after

 - i love nuts but apparently i'm allergic with that 

- i have a severe phobia with a spider

- i own two phones both Samsung. touch and clam shell.

- i like sharing things but mostly i kept it inside, scared of stereotyping. lol

ahhh i have more to say but i'll end it here for now i'll just continue this when i have time.

Confused *facing the hardest problem in my life* -.-

i don't even want it from the start! who said i like you anyway?!
i decline right? why do i accept it now? at first you told me you'll only use me for your own please, i took the risk cause i thought you worth it, i pity you and help you with that fucking business. Well your plan didn't work, again i didn't care until you ask me out? i think and ask myself? do i look easy on him? it's just a week or two, since he 's turned down then he'll come to me? nah maybe he's just confused, i accepted that thinking he'll over come this things, i let him do what ever he wanna do, he even met my parents God what am i thinking. My friends are starting to be awkward with us so i made a gap and line between friends and yeah him. i admit i almost like him i almost quote that, it all change in a certain point where i yeah read and heard something that made my blood boil. I almost even die with guiltiness knowing that i can't reciprocate his feelings. shit i'm so fucking stupid, i wish i didn't let myself fall for his plans i wish this hard feelings go away. i'm not saying i like him, just ughhhh i really feel stupid.

yeah now i don't even recognize him as someone i met long time ago. I don't even care, he don't even know why i'm angry, apparently he asked why but i didn't respond well i don't care just leave me alone! i may not be as pretty as they are, do you hear anything from me? did i offend you? i even take your offer. i'm ashamed that i let this shit go deeper. yeah think things like, i hate you, i hope you rote in your own misery ! call me vain! evil or anything you want just fucking go out of my life. i may regret this but just please stop hurting others! stop using innocent people for your own good. but in the end i'll just accept that, that's how you are.

you're kind sweet we all know that but seeking love wont work why don't just wait for it, maybe someday you'll be happy too, without offending somebody else. learn to love yourself first, as i see you care for others more than yourself to the point that you let them hurt you.

Sorry if i hurt you i know and i can feel your pain and thank you for the things you made just for once i feel special. if you love that girl much why don't win her back again i'm sure she'll be happy.

i know you want to start all over, i just can't let you the fact that i really don't feel anything for you is an enough proof, why don't make yourself happy. i thought i'll like you back as the time goes by. you're my FRIEND since we're in grade school don't you think that's enough yeah i do love you, i love you as my friend i don't want you to get hurt that's why i'm avoiding you sorry i'm coward to face this problems.

RESTLESS

so tired!!!
this past few days, i feel like hell!
so worn out!
ughhh i miss MBLAQ and Infinite's sesame player


and yeah i find a new work lol
i'm their official maid now -.-
all day i serve and clean for them well i'm GOOD xD


i crave for fic!!!! i'm fic deprived!!!
apparently i supposed to continue my own fic and the photoshop-thingy yeah :D


october 29, 2011 the day that i got the chance to touch someone who made my day :D
uwahhh imas!!!! :DDDD
he's so cute.. then someone stole the title sadly he's with a witch girl lol he looks like seungho.